I go to church, I can say that is true.
To give you a little background - church has always been one of those 'musts' in my life. My mom was the church choir director so we were there every Sunday during the school year. To tell you the truth, I didn't really like it. I liked the seeing my friends part. But every other part of church felt like I was wearing something that just didn't fit.
So fast forward to me having my own family and here we are again... going to church every Sunday. We compromised with the denomination of Protestantism and attend an Episcopalian church. I love the music outlet they provide and enjoy seeing everyone but it still feels like I am an outsider when it comes to the religious aspect.
Today I was reading
Janis' blog and came across a term I wasn't familiar with - neo-agnostic - so I googled it. I came up with
this website and the following definition from Winifred Gallagher:
``They're caught between a rock and a hard place,'' she said. ``They can't quite get into religion because they believe that religion is belief in the unbelievable, that you have to check your brains at the door. They see religion and the mind like water and oil, two things they can't harmonize.
``On the other hand, they have religious experience, longings and impulses that point to some sacred something. They're not classical atheists or agnostics, because they haven't quite given up on the whole thing. Sometimes they think there may be a God, or they wish there was a God. They say they are spiritual, but not religious.''
That is pretty close to the way I feel. I would like to believe but I just can't quite get there.
My son was recently baptized and the Rector asked me why we wanted to baptize him and I came up with... 'Well we want to have him join this community and know this is a start on that journey' blah blah blah. Then she asked B her opinion and she said 'Because it is what you do with babies'. That was really the answer I wanted to give but it wouldn't have been appropriate for me to say.
So now I have been told that it is mainly the parents responsibility to teach their children about God. When I heard that, a little voice in my head said 'Yeah right'.
Okay. I can do this. I can believe in Christ's teachings and try to teach my kids those lessons.
It is just like manners. They are a good foundation of a good life. A basis for the way people should treat each other.
It doesn't mean I believe in God though.